enigmacyofme

Creep the words into your throat,
When your thoughts spell capital ME.
I won't put up with selfish arrogance,
Wait for you to undergo atrophy.

Standing here in malcontent,
Now I know how it really feels.
What is there to do,
When tongues taste of antipathy.

Dull heat rises from the gutters,
Seeping into my lungs.
But it doesn't warm me up,
I'm freezing to death.

So let another forgotten sentence run races with the wind,
Im certain, the winter will be here first.
Let the icy chill slap me in the face,
When my only mistake was to be born someplace.

And there won't be apologies for crimes uncommitted,
Don't even expect me to open my mouth.

Upon clouds of gray she arrived unto the hills below,
With a silent kiss and a shot from her bow,
Who's arrow built a land of sorrow.

As mother tranquility fled the scene,
Leaving behind a monstrous fiend.
Houses sunk into smoke,
Engulfed by a blackened cloak.

A weary woman huddled up in a chair,
her still body screamed despair.
Looking for life, I tapped her arm,
her gaze remained without charm.

Though the fields of time ran on ahead,
I couldn't leave the sudden dread,
Would this be the last field I cross?
Would this be the last moment I toss?

Shooting blanks,
These hills have become so full of empty.
You did this to us,
You turned us oh so beastly.

Now climb back down your steel steps,
To the heart of hells below,
Let the rungs be marked with footsteps,
Let the town free of sin and sorrow.

Verse:
I lay in this coffin called a bed
Alone, waiting for death to close its lid.
And as the hands of time do not turn,
I'll retrace the teardrops to my burns.

Chorus x2:
Alibi to cry,
Alibi to cry (looking for one)
I'm setting like the sun.

Verse:
In a field of shit I felt for a spark of air,
But all I could breath was despair.
On a mountaintop enclosed by thickening trees,
I looked for the moon but all I reached was disease.

Chorus x2:
Alibi to cry,
Alibi to cry (looking for one)
I'm setting like the sun.

Verse:
Born in the fall, I'm dropping below.
With general anesthetics my lungs are full.
Flames burn my arms as I collapse.
Flames burn my lungs, then I relax.

Read the truth in my eyes,
The scars speak for themselves.
Another fairytale marked with blood,
Another story to tell.

Lavender horizon blends into the blackest night,
It's like a book so beautifully bound,
But with the story hopelessly lost.
And as the sun sets on such skies,
And as the ship sails on murky tides,
I still remain on the shores of Buffalo Bay,
As the reader.
Hopelessly lost.
The darkness then fades and thus comes its replacement
Fog, and out comes from it two glowing eyes.
"A wolve's perhaps?"
...
Two black dots swim in an ocean of grayish-blue,
Just floating along, but emitting such a radiant glow
...
"An angel's?"
...
No.
...
But almost...
They're yours,
You. All that I've ever wanted,
All that I dreamed of.
I've found you.
Or rather, you've found me.
And as you push your body through the last cloud
Into my own, I hope the wind can carry us both.
I hope that we can float.

I guess everything gets lost in the coal mine
We call night.
A pattern called time and darkness,
It's swept everything from me.

But eyes just freshly awoken
Can find love anew
While they were lost out there
In the waiting room.

Oh sun, don't go down with the set,
I haven't had time to soak up your shine.
Oh moon, don't take up her role,
You're only half as bright.

You know I've done some things
I kinda regret.
You know I've said some things
That should've been laying at the bottom of the sea bed.

On my way to a new place unknown,
Figured out that I never had a home.
On my way to a new place unknown,
My heart screamed "broken" into a microphone.

I'm an abandoned boat at the edge of Lake Tragedy,
Lonely for years, and I'm empty.
Come on, let me breath
Come on, sail me.

Sail me
To you.

Exit?

The trigger in her mouth,
Barrel pointed somewhere else.
I'll slip a pill into you,
Won't even feel it.
Won't even feel a thing.

I heard it was dangerous business
walking anywhere near you.
Frequent my steps around not towards.
But damn, I've always desired the brush of your lips.

Lost my nerve in-between movements,
I'm failing on patience.
My foot on your neck,
Stop talking and let me show you...

A sea of red in a world of black,
I'm losing too much blood in this darkness.
Why do I still try?

Your taking up my time,
Digesting me with every rhyme,
Spilling over every thought,
Like a nightmare,
I'm so lost.
Oh my God Oh my God,
I'm fucking lost.
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In the garbage next door

Born in a field of glass,
I was stepping in pain before I knew what it was.
Found myself amongst trash,
An empty bottle of vodka and a half-finished snack.
The ground is dancing,
I think it's found its match.

Dribbling my sentences,
No matter what I say,
No matter what I lie here,
I'll be a series of unfinished sequences.
No where near,
No where near...

Rain. Each drop falling ever so gracefully
From a great mist I will never know.
Heaven. Could only be with you.

I'm dying here with neither you, nor anything, not even myself...
Shit! I'm already dead, I'm so dead...
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A message

As nervous as a first time astronaut,
look to the skies and my knees shake.
"There's a medicine for that",
sings an electronic voice
But I like to see things as they are.

I'm not good enough for this,
I'm not good enough for you.
...But don't ask me to provide a pleasant air
Whilst you hold his hand and I drown in despair.
I won't be a middle man,
I won't be your jealous lil' toy.

...Then I realize,
I'm just as miserable without you.
Pillaging pirate, thief of my heart,
With every glance you take a bit more.

Two eyes so seductive,
leads me to lips like blossoming rose petals.
And you talk to me of patience,
Whilst a goddess stands before me,
Separated by a glass wall from my hands.
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Sign in the shop window reads "gone"

There's this mask I wear around you,
Lies have smudged the paint.
So I stand before you, a faded monotone gray.

Plans to unveil the hidden face,
Always made but never accomplished.
Will I forever be the one forgotten?

And even as the amount of clowns
and carnivals between us number more than one,
My thoughts wander only to you.

I fear, there is no turning back.
My body bleeds tears as broken bones brush,
The sundown of a smile.

I was dressed in make-up, unpleasant fakeup,
The man I once knew...gone.
We had our eyes open, but dizzy dreams ran in circles,
Heart vs. Brain, I didn't think it'd last this long.
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all written in Hungary and On a plane 10,000 feet above the ground.

Choke by enigmacyofme

Roses are red
Violet is green
Dear god, when do we wake from this dream?!

Contorted into a cube of fumes
Whose chimneys stab a ripped skyline.
Gotta find my way back home,
But the palace is now an empty tomb.

Can't hide the poison in my lungs,
Or climb a ladder without its rungs
I can't be honest with myself,
When lies hold hostage my tongue.

Craving the antidote to this disease,
Crawling along hands and knees.
Clouds darken whilst earth explodes in flame,
Stop feeding the fire.

Reaching towards something not there,
Hallucination turned into nightmare.
I always thought we'd look prettier
Hanging from the end of a rope.
Turns out, all we do is choke.

...But who knows if it's too late,
Hope. Remains.

Forever by Poca

Time stops as the eyes of a fox dash my way
And with Hope 96 kilometers away,
I fall today.
Oh dear fox at least leave me my pride,
Cast your own dagger aside...
Please.

If perish I must,
and you burn me to dust,
Oh predator, tell me, why?
Spare me from your feelingless lies,
spare me.

Even the old willow tree has become my enemy
You tell me, who's there for me...
Here for me?
"No one."

As God casts his anger upon us now,
And all the flowers turn their heads down,
I still stand, a lonely rat.
Oh beautiful fox don't torment me so.
If kill me you must, strike me with a single blow.

No rain can wash away my dirt
No rain can wash me into something new
I'll always be a broken-down rat,
Whom always loved you.
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Never Again by Poca

I sit here.
...Alone

But these thoughts in my head drift with you.
And o'er the coal mines we go,
And o'er the crystal clear lake we sail,
Lights above, Liquid below.

But the sun turned to moon,
And the blue turned to black,
Said you'd leave,
Not to come back.

And quickly I found myself sitting here,
...Alone...By myself...Without you...Without Anyone

Crystal clear lake turned to dirt,
The ship has sunk.
But you're all blind to my drowning,
You don't care...
Never will.

How I wish you'd come back,
Despite all the pain.
How I wish i could hold you,
But never again.
Never.
Again.
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Fact...or Fiction?

Choking in memories of you,
But I'm better off alone than I would be,
In. Your. Arms.

Suffocating from the nothingness,
I tried to find something new,
But my hand slipped from the handle.
Falling. Farther and Farther.

Secrets don't make friends,
So I'll be straightforward with you.
Fallen angel, Keeper of Fire And Flame
Why can't you spare me from your bittersweet plague?
My heart's the toy, and the world is your stage.

Can't stop running,
But all winds lead me back to the start.
Going in circles. For You.

The light sparkles on a face,
Just dances for a second or two,
Then, It's gone.
Like your passionate love,
But maybe that was just my imagination.

Pensive Cries by Revi + enigmacyofme

Who am I,
In perfect confidence, to miss you?
Who am I to fall in love;
I see the world looking better
Not seeing anything at all.

When we had too many counts against us
To have made this seem right.
I took out a bottle of your favorite,
Tonight, we all forget.

But didn't...

Did we ever have a flame to light the path,
Or are we still walking amidst darkness?
Were we ever going the same way,
Or just calling out in the mist?

I love you,
Or do I just love the lie of you loving me?
Catastrophe, is the only thing this can lead to.
But I don't care...
Not right now..
Not yet.

Strewn across the ground, face down
with shards of glass through our bodies.
How could we be together in this mess?

Can't take another second of this,
The pieces just don't fit.
I'm falling from my cloud,
I'm falling.

But its too late to say i told you so...

I know by enigmacyofme

Lost everything close to my heart,
But there's still something beating there.
Faint noise,
The grave is home to the heartless.

You don't know me,
Don't say you do.
As much as it hurts,
With you, is not where I want to be.

but I have to...

Love. You only discover such a feeling,
When it hurts the most.
Took me so long to understand,
Love is not a bliss.

Sparks of happiness misguide the common traveler,
Because really, Love is a struggle.
It isn't the fun and games you see on tv.
And Love certainly doesn't mend the broken...

It destroys.

And with these broken wings,
I can not take flight,
The sky sits there so seductively,
Like a prostitute on a lonely night.

Love is my wall,
Love is my prison.
See my death,
And I'll see myself risen.

I sure hope this path has an end by enigmacyofme

Eyes to mouth,
there's a bullet trickling slow.
Heart to brain,
Frozen like snow.

Pleasure to end all pleasures,
take me from this hold.

Pain has nowhere left to flow,
Overwhelmed.
Rain has nowhere left to fall,
Flooded.
Blades have nowhere left to cut,
Wounded.

Left in the middle of the sea,
I will reach an island.
Entangled in a cloud of gray,
I will reach the sun.
Directed towards places unknown,
I will find my way.

And let the stars not be my guide,
for they fall just like I.
And let the moon not show my path,
escape from heaven's wrath...

I can't.

Breeze by enigmacyofme

Superficial seduction in dead of night,
A silent suffocation choking my life.
The breeze carries what we have lost,
The breeze carries the fragments forgot.

Crimson cat amongst cumulus clouds,
Pure as heaven, but its dirtied now.
The breeze buries hellacious memories,
The breeze buries unforeseen remedies.

Take my breath away,
But I'm unsure if I had one in the first place.
It was just the breeze sweeping past,
It was just the breeze.

Waiting to feel the knife run through,
A dagger marked with my own blood.
Thought it over and this my adieu,
Spaceships don't cause cuts...

But the breeze does.

Metamorphosis by enigmacyofme

Sugar spills from bowls of blood red
Wine leaves stains, like strychnine
I'll poison you.

Fall to my knees,
And conjure up a dream as sudden breeze sweeps through the trees.
I'll imagine you next to me, I'll imagine my heaven.

As your insinuating scent shifts through a hole,
Reaches the doors to my soul.
I strain my eyes to see you through the mist,
but all I catch is a glimpse.
And what's left, is this...

Blurry lines written a million years past the time they were supposed to be written,
But maybe there's a sense simply called guilt.
Maybe I wasn't ready to write,
My mind itself was a scary thing to define, just spent my days biting nails to pass time.

Well here I am. Rambling on, like a lunatic.
And you are there...somewhere...over there?
It's only your ghost that lingers,
It's only your shadow that remains.

I've killed you.
Let me correct myself, I've killed who you were.
For the two selves can not be associated under one term.
It's comparing falcons to pigeons...they just aren't the same.

Your flavor swings like a boat, side to side.
And you've got metamorphosis backwards, its no longer caterpillars to butterflies.
But what hurts me the most,
But what makes me cry...

I did this to you.

THE SUN STILL BURNS by enigmacyofme

And when fresh air permeates your cancerous lungs,
And when sunflowers bloom in beauty,
And even when flowers fall...
I'll be there,
A shadow without a name.

And when death descends from your fingers,
And when spring arrives,
And even when raindrops fall...
I'll be there,
Another shadow to maim.

And when the sun blooms in yellow on October sky,
And when tears run below your eye,
And even when stars die,never to fly.
I'll be there,
A shadow to remain.

Through all, you'll stay in eminence,
Reign over me with prominence.
Rip this beating thing out of my chest,
It's yours, please take it.

And I'll kiss you under the veil of midnight
...
Never to part again.
...

YOU WON'T FORGET by enigmacyofme

Let the space in your lungs be filled with bullets and guns.
Leave the air out for a day,
Just let yourself decay...
You do it anyway.

I'll be waiting at the corner store,
An empty body bag, nothing more.
As the flies buzz o'er head,
I'll leave you for the dead.

Unmasked snakes crawl upon your walls,
From morning's golden shine, until twilight's calls.
You catch them one-by-one, careful of your kill,
Precise..
but yet new snakes lay unstill.

Every thief has a secret.
If I whisper mine in your ear,
Will you keep it?
If I named my fear,
Would you believe it?

Space and time distort the mind,
But love destroys.
Use your heart to think, to believe,
But KNOW you never will.

As I steal you to your eternal night,
My mind wanders to sunlight...

AT LEAST NOW YOU WON'T FORGET MY BLOODY NAME.

Leave the wound at your head,
Leave your heart torn.
Because everything has a place
And everything has a home.
...But I don't

Like fallen rain,
I'm falling for you.
A knife needs a blade,
I need you.

What does it mean to be loved?

My eyes fixated upon yours,
But you avoid my glance.
Our love, is not a romance...

You gave me your promises,
I believed your lies.
You gave me your body,
But where is your mind?

Tied to time,
I'll pretend to be you.
Learn your lines,
I'll break hearts in two.

And nevermore is she mine,
Always there, Always divine,
Nevermore, is she mine.

Plastic Trees by enigmacyofme

The frame crooked and empty,
There's a hole where our love is supposed to be.
God said the truth will set me free,
All I see is chains around my knees.

Down the highway, down the path,
Down the road, down the pass.
Death's coming, I'm still running...

To you,
I address my final words
But thoughts escape like bluebirds.
And to the vinyards they go,
Holding plans only they know.

With string laced in gold,
A red ribbon 'round your tongue,
Your existance patrolled,
I'll have you hung.

Stay with me forever
You will not refuse.
Your rotting corpse so tender,
A sun amongst the slews.

But even the sun goes away,
Just like everything else,
I know I can't keep you.
I'm certain,
I can't even keep myself.

Give it Another Thought by enigmacyofme

Stars blink out from unearthly skies,
Mars flies away and hope dies.
Galaxies turn to mist,
And another sunset missed.

No need to apologize,
Emptyness will change your mind.
Hollow becomes redifined.
Hollow becomes your very life.

But if you payed me ten bucks, I'd kill her,
Leave the blood dripping down the bedroom mirror.
What does it matter when you die,
If your existance is a lie?

Take another step,
And fall right back,
Into the fantasies,
Into your wreck.

Take another fabrication,
let it flow into unsuspecting ears.
Take another deception,
let it blind the eyes of the healthy.

Los Angeles will sing from upon high-reaching trees,
New York shall rejoice in praise,
And all the monkies will say:
'What a great lie I've been fed today!'

Your neon eyes by enigmacyofme

A shadow in the crowd of nobodies,
A mirror image of everyone else,
I stand out,
But not to you.

Your neon eyes blinking vacancy,
Then your neon eyes lay unblinkingly.

Let the razor be left on the floor
The stagnant blood marks a spot in the core
Slashed wrists and slashed hearts
Fuck the slashes and leave the love

And if I had the guts to tell you
You'd leave me in the rear view.
And if I had the guts to tell you
I'd leave you my one honest virtue.

You sent me reeling from decapitated dreams,
Defeated, I stagger on.
Unashamed, show me the scar.

Wounded in battle,
They took not my leg, but my soul.
They took not me, but stained knives.

And I'm trying to work all these problems through,
There's nothing left to do,
But prove myself to you.

Leave me black and blue,
A hole in the center,
This is adieu.

'Cause there's no room in this hell,
There is no room anywhere else,
So I sleep in this dingy motel,
Where can I go?
Pray tell this misery of men

Your memory will remain,
Until fresh liquid circulates the vein
And even I fail, I tried not in vain.
Your worth every thought,
Worth every praise.

And if all these words stab,
Like daggers in your back
I still mean them.
I love you.

Daydreams of confusion by enigmacyofme

Well, there's this empty noise
Helps fill a colourless void
Whilst your arms rest still
Draped around me, a cape from the 16th century.
You're dead.

Each footstep met by a numbed crunch,
A leaf stuck to my shoe, maybe it's you...
But knows...who?
Looks just like the other bunch,
You're dead.

To you I'm only a confused child,
Always in an overused denial,
Who's to say what's stupid or smart?!
Who's to say what's off the mark?!
Facts are sparse but here is one,
You're dead.

Take away my roof, my door.
Hell takes, but heaven gives more,
And it gave me something to believe...
'Cause what's the point of living
If it's only to breath?!
But you,
You're dead.

To the ends of the earth,
Wife and kids gone berserk,
Don't want to travel,
Like a hand full of gravel
I drag them along.
I would drag you too,
But you,
You're already dead.

My words have produced many scars,
And my acts of distaste shot stars,
But the path still winds its way on,
You don't move along,
You're Dead.

Gotta lay the blame on someone else,
"I didn't stab myself, they did it themselves"
Well, too bad.
The sin still lingers
The "big bad world" ain't so sad.
Yeah, I'm quite sure
You're dead.

An altered face in the mirror,
A bed in which you've bled,
I'm not your mirror, nor your bed.
Stand amongst living, looking on
But do I really know what's going on?
What is my dictionary?
You, You're Dead?

A textbook question,
A textbook defeat.
Blank pages.
They don't tell me.
They don't answer me.
Without these lies,
Who am I?
WHO AM I?!
Am I?